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Written by Ben
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Tuesday, 28 February 2006 |
As I was laying in bed last night trying to goto sleep, I just could not help think about how I live my life. Now I know according to the Bible (Ephesians 2:8,9) that works do not save me, and I know, in my heart that God has redeemed me with the blood of his son Jesus and he is my Lord and Savior. However, I cannot help to think that I do not do enough or you might say 'do my part' to help God further his kingdom. When you think about that though, you realize that God does not need our help. He sure did not need it when he created the heavens and the earth, so I am sure he does not need it now.
Even though God does not need me, per say, he does want me to completely surrender my whole life so that he can use me. That is where I stumble in my christian life. I know many others do, but that does not make it okay. I have read of various christians, average everyday people to christian artists and even speakers in churches talk about their struggles in life. I know from hearing them it happens to almost everyone, but at times it feels like it only happens to me. Like I am the worst christian in the whole world.
Even with all of that, I do realize that The Lord has used me to do some good in peoples lives. Sometimes I can look back over the days, weeks, months, even years that I have been a christian and I begin to notice small things that I may have said or done for someone that might have been just what that person needed to lift them up that day. Things would always seem to happen up to a certain point and then you realize that all of these things just happened for a reason.
So why did I write all of this. Well I know alot of you may struggle with some of the exact same things. Like I have a hard time trying to witness to people. I, for the most part, am just afraid of rejection by these people. So in that area I fail miserably. I am also very lazy when it comes to reading my Bible as much as I should, but it seems like when I do start reading that I can't put it down. Almost like I have not had a meal in a long time and this is dinner or something. If you have some of these same problems, know that your not alone. I thought I was for along time until I started hearing others talk about it. So this is why I wrote this. This is why we all need to pray, one for another in hopes that our strength can be renewed, our courage can be restored, our desire for the word can be set ablaze.
GOD BLESS EVERYONE!!
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Last Updated ( Tuesday, 28 February 2006 )
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Written by Ben
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Monday, 27 February 2006 |
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I thought to myself, why not start your own blog so that people can see exaclty who you are, but then I thought, why would anyone care, but then I thought, well maybe people can relate to you and your life's experience. Well that continued for quite sometime until I was able to get this thing setup. So here I start my first blog today!!
This past weekend my wife's (Vickie) parents came up and with them brought her older sister and two of her girls. We all had a good time visiting with one another. I played with the girls (my nieces) while Grandma and Grandpa (her mom and dad) took over custody of our son for the couple days they were here. It was ashame that he was sick most of the time though.
We had been telling them that he (our son Aden) has been rolling over pretty good now, and wouldn't you know it. When they got here he never fully rolled over until about 30 minutes after they left to go back home. I laughed, but for some reason they didn't......lol.
All in all a pretty good weekend except for the boy being sick.
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